Daunting yet exciting too

I’ve been battling with my CV since completing my course and I finally began sending it out yesterday!

So now I’ll just need to wait and see if I hear back.

Then I notice the most irritating school boy error…. A bloody spelling mistake 😦

O well, I’ll fix it and future issues will be spelling error free.

Emotional set backs

I didn’t want to think about her recently, in fact I’ve been keeping myself so busy and concentrating on the future I see before me.

Unfortunately I cannot stop it and she has entered my mind regularly this past week.

I tell myself these feelings are something I CAN live with, I NEED to live with.  I repeat to myself nothing will come of it, nothing good anyway, no matter how I may have dreamt about it.

I stupidly tell myself she tells herself the same things and feels the same but then I don’t believe it and I find myself in a vicious circle of self loathing.

The stupidity of this man, the one who writes this silly blog, holds no bounds.

Valentines day holds nothing dear to her and I yet it is meant to be the time of love.  So no matter how I dress it up, I try and forget and move on but a place in my heart and soul is forever hers.

I hope you spent last night with someone you love and cherish.

Love

It sure is a curse at times

Progess and the burden

So I’ve completed my course and am in the process of revamping my CV to send the put to all and sundry.

Its tricky!

Things at home are good but my wee boy went from having and ear infection with high temperatures to chickenpox, poor wee guy.

She has been in my thoughts a lot recently, sometimes I can shake it off other tines it burdens me for hours.  Something I’ll need to live with for the rest of my life I guess.

Keep your fingers crossed I get a new career!

Hello February

Hello and I hope this finds you well.

A LOT has changed since my last post; I’ve grasped life by the balls…

I’m booked on the essential training course to facilitate working offshore and allow me to change career, that’s next week!

I touched on it before that I was considering consenting to try for another baby and that’s what I’ve done.

Its all happening and its quite exciting, just going for things rather than over thinking the possibilities to the nth degree and waiting for everything to apparently be right.

If you want something, go get it!

If you can take anything from this post and my blog I hope it to be this message.

~Life is short, don’t waste it and strive to fill your life with people and things that make you happy.~